Sitting at that doctors office when I was 17 years old, hearing the words no teenager expects to hear… “you are infertile”…my world was turned upside down. A million questions were running through my head, at a pace I couldn’t cope with and everything turned into a blur.
At a time when I was still trying to find myself, my values and my goals in life, these words raised more questions for which I didn’t have an answer. I had never thought about whether I wanted to have kids or not, but having that option taken away from me upset me a lot. I questioned myself as a woman, my role in society and what it meant for all the dreams I hadn’t had yet but had already lost. How am I supposed to mourn the loss of something I never had to begin with?
Being raised a catholic, the diagnosis also made me question my religion and faith. What’s my role in a future intimate relationship when we know reproduction is not an option? Although that was not necessarily my belief, being raised a catholic made me wonder my religion’s view on this.
I wanted to feel normal and fit in…
How has your diagnosis made you feel? What questions showed up in your head you had never thought of? Let me know in the comments section below.